It’s been two months since I finished university for the Summer…what have I done since then? I had all these plans, things I wanted to do, projects to get my teeth into…what have I done about them so far? Nothing.
Don’t get me wrong. I haven’t been sitting here twiddling my thumbs but I also haven’t managed to do any of the things I was looking forward to. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself; I’ve been teaching more yoga classes, exercising more, cooking more, reading a bit more. That doesn’t seem to match up with all the extra time freed up through not having uni.
Some of my plans I’m procrastinating about. I know I am. There’s a couple of projects I want to get onto but I know they’ll take a lot of time and work and I’m putting off starting. That’s not like me. I like a project, something to really get stuck into so why am I not just getting on with it? Maybe it’s easy to just stay where I am doing what I’m doing. If I try something and it doesn’t work does that means I’ve failed. Is it better not to start at all? Maybe I’m trying to do too many different things at once. Maybe I need to focus in on just a couple of things for now. I don’t know.
One thing I have realised is that I’m struggling with the hours involved in teaching yoga. Classes are often morning, lunchtime and evening. This leaves odd hours free in between the classes. I seem to be spending a lot of my time travelling and in London this usually means on packed tubes not able to really do much apart from maybe, just maybe get a book in front of your face to read. When I do have time at home…like now, I usually think about how long I’ve got before I need to leave again and then plan what I can do in that time. An hour can be a long time, you can get a lot done in an hour. This blog post will probably be written in an hour (not that it’s one of my finest; more stream of conscious ramblings.) I spend too long thinking an hour isn’t long enough to do something so I don’t even start. Just because I can’t finish something doesn’t mean I shouldn’t start.
The reason I decided to write this blog was because, honestly, I’ve been uploading a blog every Tuesday and got into the habit of it. I enjoy writing blogs and recipes and sharing with you guys but today I didn’t want to. I’m sorry, but it’s true. I’ve felt bored lately, stuck in a rut with what I’m doing. It’s all too samey. I need some change; I need something different. Since university has finished I’ve ended up in this routine which I didn’t realise I’d fallen into. I’ve allowed things to just happen and evolve and get to this point. It’s not bad or horrible just a bit dull. I’m someone who very much thrives of excitement, on doing things, on a little bit on spontaneity and this routine is not conducive to any of that. So, I need to change things up a little. I have some exciting things planned in over the next few weeks. I’m volunteering at the World Yoga Festival 19th – 23rd July and then I’m off to Budapest for a week with my lovely boyfriend to see the Grand Prix and have a wander around a city I love. But, if I’m not careful when I get back for August I could be where I am now. Instead I’m recognising what’s making me feel a little stuck right now and I’m going to make a change. I’m going to find a way for it to work. Sometimes it’s not simple but there is always a way. Maybe I don’t go home in between classes. Maybe I find a coffee shop to sit in and work – saving travel time and allowing more time to do things I want to get stuck into. Maybe I say no to some covers and do what works for me. The only person that can change this is me so I better do something about it.
I’d love to hear from you. Is there anything making you feel a bit stuck at the moment? What are you doing to get out of your rut?